I doubt you know who I am and I told myself I would never stoop so low and contact you but I just wanted you to know.. You seem like a nice girl. And it sucks because you’re way prettier than I am. You have the dark curly hair that he loves. And you’re more athletic than I am so you two have more in common than he and I do.
I always told myself that if I was ever cheated on I would leave right away so I look stupid now for staying with him but it was too hard to leave him after I found out. I tried but he was a mess because he thought he was about to lose me and I cared too much to see him like that.
I’m trying to forgive him. Even if it was just a kiss between you two. I’m so in love with him, the thought anyone else’s lips on his breaks my heart. Thinking about how he forgot about me for a split second, long enough to hold another girl in his arms, tears my heart apart. I want nothing more than to be with him for the rest of my life. I can’t even begin to explain how much he means to me. So when I found out that he kissed another girl, it broke my heart. He’s not a bad guy and that is why it hurts so much. He’s the best guy I’ve ever been with. He’s genuinely a good person. He’s selfless and has a big heart. I would never in a million years thought that he could do that to me.
I know it’s been a year now but it still hurts. I know it’s not just your fault. It’s his too. And I know you saw him on Sunday after the Boilermaker but I don’t know if you saw me too. I definitely saw you. It was an instant mood killer. I went from happy to so angry and sad in two seconds. I couldn’t believe my eyes. It brought back so much pain. I would never wish that kind of pain upon anyone, not even you.
I’m trying to move on. I don’t know if I ever will though. I hope for the sake of my relationship, I can. Because I know people makes mistakes and I don’t believe everyone gets a second chance. But I also know that he’s not a bad guy. And from the looks of it, you don’t seem bad either. I do know though if it ever happens to me again, that’s it. I can’t handle anymore.
Jasmine, there’s a 99.9% chance you’ll never read this and you probably don’t even care. Why would you? I’m just a stranger. But I’m giving you the benefit of the doubt, that if you are a good person, that you do feel guilty and sorry for what you did. I hope so. Maybe then I could find a way to move on.